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Laughing's not as painful now. Woohoo! And I got to eat yusheng finally today... yippee! Well, thanks to all the peepz who came over last week to visit me and chat till late with me. :p Really love you gals to bits. You know who you are!

The furrysquidge is getting the hang of house and toilet rules. The poor girl was pretty confused last week when I started not leaving the house during the day and it messed things up (both the squidge and the humans) for a while. Headache sia.

Stitches will be off tmrw! Then it's intensive scar management from then on... I'm pretty okay with scars - after all, I'm blind to my own birthmark already - but well, I will try to address it and at least not let it overgrow too zealously.

And I will try to sit on my therapyball once again in the next couple of days or so.

I came across this last week:

To believe in God demands an act of faith—as does the decision not to believe in him. Neither is based upon absolute certainty, nor can they be. To accept Jesus demands a leap of faith—but so does the decision to reject him. To accept Christianity demands faith—and so does the decision to reject it. Both rest upon faith, in that nobody can prove with absolute certainty that Jesus is the Son of God, the risen saviour of humanity—just as nobody can prove with absolute certainty that he is not. The decision, whatever it may be, rests upon faith. There is an element of doubt in each case. (http://www.rzim.org/resources/jttran.php?seqid=110)

"tad shiok"

I never appreciated how shiok it was to be able to sneeze normally until now. I have managed to stifle all sneezes this past week with the exception of one sneeze which reduced me to a whimpering kid... which further hardened my resolve to stifle all sneezes from now on. Until I dunno when.

So SAD!!! =(((

Things to do so that I don't waste my time at home:
- Catch up on the bible-reading. I've been lagging bigtime since Feb. It's now nearing end Feb!
- Train the furrysquidge at home.
- Organise my files/bills/impt documents.

I pledge that this will be time well-spent!

a CNY to remember

So I will get to have my loooong rest after all, thru a series of dramatic events over the Chinese New Yr hols which i was initially looking fwd to so much. Some abdominal discomfort that started as I was taking the train back home after work on Saturday escalated into a sharp body-doubling pain on the right side. I mustered up enough courage to take in some lunch since it was THE CNY eve lunch although it was against the will of my body and duly puked everything out.

By then, I was pretty sure it warranted a visit to the a&e. After some very unglamourous tests, the decision was made (mainly by myself) to be admitted. Yes, my gut feeling (no pun intended) was that it was appendicitis.

By 9pm I was wheeled in to the theatre, got stripped of my remaining piece of jewellery (totally forgotten abt the toe ring, hah) and got my stomach cut open to remove the offending, and offended, body part.

And so I spent CNY day1 in a stupor of grogginess, feverish nausea, pain (since i vomitted out the painkillers) and stinking cuz i had not showered since friday night.

I still have no appetite and I can't walk with my back straight. I can look forward to 2 wks of MC now though, cuz I don't think my ab walls will like it very much if I transfer another heavy uncle anytime soon. But I sincerely pray that the team will get on fine, because I know stress levels have been escalating, which is also a contributing factor that I can point to that led to all this stuff happening. But I shall spare the graphic details here. You still wanna enjoy your CNY goodies. :p

All I wish for now is to be able to laugh without the pain...

fatigued

i'm super duper tired. very very very tired. i'm in no mood to be modest abt it anymore - let me tell you that being an OT in an acute hospital is seriously... TIRING to the max. i need to sleep for 50hrs now. zzzzz.

indescribable

by Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colours of fall to the fragrance of springBm
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim

You are amazing God
Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

loss

There is a mild sense of loss as my team leader and mentor finally began her study leave. She has always been there for me since day one as a baby qualified therapist, guiding me along the way in an area that was truly a whole new learning experience. Now the team's really all on our own. It has been a rather busy first two days of the month following my slightly new coverage and I don't really know if it will continue that way... brrr. No more honeymoon period, no more helping other units. Well, I guess I just gotta stay strong!